Are you the publisher? Claim this channel


Embed this content in your HTML

Search



Account: (login)

More Channels


Channel Catalog


Articles on this Page

(showing articles 1 to 50 of 50)
(showing articles 1 to 50 of 50)

Channel Description:

News Community Action

    off to the barn to wait for the vet - my pony isn't wanting to walk - either his shoulder (when he tripped two weeks ago) or something else.

    i am so upset - hope yall don't mind if i come here.  i hate this - i hate having to borrow to take care of him.  i shouldhn't HAVE to be borrowing anything now - but until my mom's estate is settled, i am here in this place of hell - not able to take care of the one i love the most when he needs me.

    hey, folks - word of advice here - if you have children - write a clear will, set up a trust - choose an executor who someone who is NOT a relative!  
    my vet is coming out - just talked to him - will take a post dated check on my social security - i HATE this.

    sorry to rant - i'll probably delete this - but right now = i could really use some friends.  one friend is there at barn to help take care of his bill - i need the emotional support.

    the hardest part is not hating the person responsible for this....

    got to go.


    i am raging right now - beyond words and into sputtering!

    as i mentioned somewhere around here, my horse has serious problems right now.  life-threatening problems.  he went dead lame a week ago and was diagosed with laminitis, cushings and insulin resistance.  so.  i'm putting things on ebay to start covering what will be expensive vet bills.  very expensive vet bills.  NEVER AGAIN WILL I SELL ON EBAY!!!  i am SOOOOOOO angry right now i could spit nails!

    i've sold ebay before - i have paypal (owned by ebay) on etsy.  never had a problem.. until now when i've joined the ranks of ALL ebay sellers!  they've changed their payment process and it is a scam and possibly illegal - but until someone files a legal complaint, they are getting away with it!  oh. wait.  there HAS been a class action lawsuit - here is that information... i imagine this is just the first until they change their policy.

    what are they doing?  simple.  ebay no longer releases funds on items purchased and paid for until 21 days or more.  not even the shipping costs!

    come below the squiggle and be forwarned that you do NOT want to sell through ebay unless you like loaning them interest free money - and, as i said, it ain't just me.  cnn and fortune watch have also covered this with the comment that this may be their "netflix" moment.

    join me for a outrageous rant below...


    this is my response to a dear young friend today - he is former military - spent two months in iraq and has totally turned against the "establishment"

    i need help in trying to explain the dangers of third party voting - this was a quick facebook answer i sent him (well, okay - not so "quick"...) and i'm afraid my wordiness will get the critical points i need to make get lost in the posts.  so i need all of your help to pare down these arguments into something more easily digested and strong enough to change his mind!

    HELP!  below the squirrel is the post - and i really need your input!


  • 10/31/12--02:05: being lost... (chan 1012566)
  • once upon a time i was someone who had a dream... and i made the dreams of others come alive.

    i "saw" something that was in the ether - the "other" - and i brought it to life in this world.

    and then i lost that vison - for a while.  but now, i am finding it yet again.

    this is a personal journey - shared by many who are walking along parallel paths.  

    tonite i am listening to songs of those whose hearts follow that same yearning.  kaye bohler, for one - her song "how do i get there" just came up as i was typing. that is a question for all of us on this journey.

    how DO i get there - and how do any of us achieve the dreams that drive us onward, upward - all in the face of unseeming odds.

    i am feeling re-born.  why now? why at this time?  

    this is a crossroads for us all - we all have decisions to make - roads to choose - political, personal, private roads - but the question remains the same: how do i get there when my world is closing in?  those are the lyrics of a dreamer - kaye wrote those words a few years ago and she still struggles on that path.  i asked that same question decades ago and i am STILL asking that question.

    HOW do i get there - and where is "there"  - what is that dream that eludes my grasp and why do i keep reaching?

    this isn't just my journey - it is ALL of our journeys - how DO we get there?

    what drives us - what motivates us and why don't we just give in to the inertia of staying in one place that is where we are now...

    these are questions for a late nite pondering of the soul.  these are the questions from the sadness of the loss of someone loved by a friend.  these are the questions of life and the living when faced with the dying and death of those dreams and those who are loved.

    just a midnight's pondering as we regroup and refocus on what matters in our lives - in my life.

    as i see my precious sani and my dreams for us together creating beautiful music together turning into a dissonent symphony, i am faced with changing music - changing dreams - yet, still faced with the beauty of that which is instead of that which could be... what more could we ask of life.

    that is the question.

    that is for you all to ponder - and to find individual answers...

    just thoughts in the middle of the night after the storm has passed before the next winds blow...


    well, she's already a star... her two hits have been high on the music charts in the u.k. and in the u.s. - she is fulfilling a dream with her first tour - starting tonite in london.  she is from l.a. but hails from texarkana - a woman who has a dream and is making it happen.  

    i know frankie - she is an amazing singer and dancer who is now producing her cd and show in london tonite.  she hires other artists - she is doing everything right AND she is self-funding this thing!

    i met frankie while working at acura - she is a gearhead.  she is hired by top automotive companies to teach about the new products by doing the intros of new models of cars: acura, bmw, etc  we started talking because she travels with her papillon named mimi introducing new models of cars. our conversations continued the next year when we left the guys at the acura showroom scratching their heads over our conversation on torque and why the unibody tl couldn't pull a horse trailer (heh heh - gearheads ALWAYS leave others scratching their heads).

    anyhow, frankie was doing what so many artists do while working on "instant success" and finally it is coming her way!  come below the squiggle for a sample of her music and how you can be a part of the magic!


    OMIGOD!  i just read the title of my little rant and it looked like i was also screwed by etsy!  NOT - i meant to alert that i'd added some stuff finally!  damn - i never should post while fuming! (unless it is about republicans, that is...)

    EDIT:  i WAS on the phone when i started this - not currently.

    i am on the phone with ebay right now and i am absolutely livid beyond words!  

    i am, as many of you might have picked up , moving.  i can't afford my little 800 sq ft cottage any longer and am moving into a friend's house (10x9 room to fill with a lifetime of "stuff" - and throw out what can be replaced another day.

    the move is horrific - i'm not as young as i used to be and at 67, was grateful for a friend who moved the bulk of my big things in a three horse slant - two trips (LOVE ya, scottie marnell!)

    so, in between taking care of sani (laminitis, cushings, insulin resistance - daily meds) and packing up and loading what's left in my old van (that has to come out of non-op, along with the little rv i lived in for years and may one day need again) - i put together some earrings and stuff last nite for etsy. when i need to raise funds to pay for the critical things, i make things.  that's how i've done it my whole life.  right now it is critical because i have to be out tomorrow.  no more extensions.

    it's critical because my hand surgery that was postponed when sani got sick - now it's rescheduled to dec 21 (yay - laid up for christmas.... oh well..._  BUT - back to ebay...


    heh heh....  okay - one hand typing translation:

    santa brought me new fingers for christmas!!!!

    not much of a diary - just a celebration!!!

    IMG_20121221_132434

    IMG_20121221_132639

    merry christmas to all and solstice and all celebrations, too.  may your gifts be just as awesome!!!!!


    this isa short diary - go listen.  assad is rambling and totally insane!

    here is the link to bbc for the live broadcast

    sorry for the short diary - i want to go back and watch!


    this video of beca and stormy was taken in 2011 - but it could have been nimbus and me.  we shared the same experiences - total trust and blind faith in one another... sometimes i think nimbus, like stormy, could see even better than we can what life is really about!

    enjoy - nothing more for me to say here but enjoy - and believe!

    and share ...


    one of our own tragically lost his beautiful daughter in a horrific murder in march, 2007.
    Alicia (Sears) Castillon and John Mitchell (her boyfriend) were murdered by her former boyfriend - despite having gone to court before and having the judge tell him to "stay away", her killer entered the home and shot both alicia and john while her children were in their bedrooms in the house at the time.  they  heard the shots.   the heart wrenching call to 911 was from from one of alicia's children who identified the killer as their stepdad.

    when this happened, kossack got a grip wrote of the tragedy of alicia's death along with sharing much of her life - and photos of her with her dad - our own zwoof.

    all too often we stand and shake our heads and wonder "what could i have done" or "what can i do?" when we hear of domestic violence.  well, right now - today - you have a chance to make a difference... to DO something... and know that it started here with one of our own.

    for an explanation, please follow me beneath the fold...


    UPDATED 3:56 PM PT: we are over half way there!  zwoof just let me know that the new total is $2,257.69!  we CAN do this!  

    wouldn't it be awesome for alicia's voice to open it's doors on monday knowing they will be there for another year!

    half way done!  you kossacks are awesome!

    back to the original diary now...
    ****

    friday, our own zwoof wrote an incredibly moving diary about alicia's voice - the organization established to help those who are victims of domestic violence.  in her memory, her mother started took that grief and vowed to not let that voice be silenced - and, in the last six years, over 1400 women in the toledo, ohio area have been the beneficiaries of that effort.

    sadly, it looked as though that voice would be silenced due to the recession and tough times that saw donations lessening - but the community stepped forward to let people know how important her message was, is.

    we started a fundraiser to gather the money to keep the doors open another year and we have over 1/3 of those funds within a day.  we are not alone in wanting alicia's voice to succeed.  zwoof told me that the folks in bowling green are also kicking in to try to keep her voice reaching out to those who need.

    please come with me to the next step beneath the orange swirl...


    These last few days, I've been pondering what made me into who I am today.  That answer always beginss to my Dad and my Mom, especially their love of books.  We were surrounded by them!  BOOKS!  Lots and lots of BOOKS!  From the encylopedia sets we had by the beginning of the third grade – including “The Book of Knowledge” and the Children's Stories, we were given wonderful books on fables, story tales, adventures.  As I think about it, certain ones still keep coming to the foreground of my mind after all these years of first reading (and believe me, I do mean ALL these years – 60+ behind the binding).  And, from those books, I remember phrases, ideas, lessons... and among the earliest of them that I recall were Aesop's Fables.

    Frequently, I remember certain sayings and realize many of my “guiding principles” come from  those simple stories.  I loved those books and read them over and over as a child.  I wonder how many children are reading these books today – books that were written over two thousand years ago.  If they are, will they too carry these wise stories into their lives, will they share them with their children?

    These Fables, these “stories”, all had one theme in common – consequences.   From our actions, our choices, the fable presents lessons to be learned.  How often, as children, do we hear stories that leave an indelible imprint on our young minds. i HOPE these same tales now being shared with children of this and recent past generations?  At 67, I remember as clearly today as I did when I was 6 and 7 yrs old, sitting on the floor looking at the “stories” in the abundance of books that surrounded me.  

    My father was an avid reader – his love of books has come down through my life because of the exposure to those magical/mystical stories. As a small child/young adult, I was able to disappear into another reality, another world filled with other people and their experiences, their reactions, their success, adversity, challenges or failure.  I learned the hard lessons along beside the goat, the wolf, the snake, the farmer - sometimes with laughter, manytimes with a studied "I'M not gonna get caught like THAT" reaction.

    That is why, in this electronic age where even a one year old child has TWO computers instead of books and the bonding time between parent and child?  I wonder if we are cheating that child by not sitting together and reading these strange things called “books”.  Are we really that busy in life that we cannot take the time to refresh our own memories of these wise tales with the fresh young mind who has yet to hear them? The time we take to share the stories builds relationships of trust and comfort and love between parent and child.  The lessons learned are relatively painless as the child is taught compassion, wisdom, empathy, understanding.  Don't we owe the next generation the gift of imagination?

    If you are interested in which tales, which fables have stayed – stuck and stayed and molded this one mind... please drop into the well with me...


    i deparately want to attend - it is within 15 minutes of where i live, however, due to the current extreme poverty state i am under, there isn't a way for me to pay for the registration fee.  it is killing me!  in a number of months, i know my financial situation is going to change, but i fear it will not be in time for the netroots 2013.  

    so, i'm out here trying to find a way to be there - i can volunteer - do setup, work/study/ mop floors, bus tables - ANYTHING to get to go!  8^(

    heck, i'll even throw in trips to meet sani and if any larger groups want to go horseback riding - i'll check on how much and where the best would be!

    i'd hoped to be ahead of the game before finger surgery, but that didn't happen and now i'm just starting to make jewelry again - to catch up with sani's vet bills for his laminitis and for his board.  it's going to be tight to do that and raise enough for netroots, too.

    sooooo....

    is there a formal process to apply for a scholorship?  or are there workerbee slots that need filling?  and, if there are vendor tables, how much are those?  i could make kossack colored stuff to raise money for the site and pearls/stones to pay back the registration!

    HALP!  i wanna go to da conVENtion!!!!!  an an an... all teh sfkossack tables are filling up fast - i could even bring my own chair?

    snifff sniffle sniffff...


    kron4 news (san francisco) tonite announced when president obama signed the sequester into existence... then they actually discussed what was going on - and ... to my shock and amazement, after some decent explanation, the anchor stated that neither the president or congress was going to change this until the people started to react.

    THEN... (are you ready) the anchor stated this was an attempt by the republicans to get rid of all the programs of the new deal that they had hated - the safety net, social services, etc.!

    i'm sorry i don't have this verbatim - my jaw was so far on the floor that i didn't have the computer on or fingers ready to transcribe!


    hai, everbody...

    our friend aitchdee translated a diary from sam today about the hard timez momma is havin with the GFM (Grumpy Faced Man).  well, sam haz happiez cuz momma not quite so panicked that we run risk of getting our toesies trod on - shez not pacing quite as earlier todai -

    happy sam

    but she still haz those worried wrinkles on her face and that makes OUR headz tilt and wrinkle then our noez wrinkle and we worriez too!  so i bin sittin here in da graz tinkin what to do.  i wuz gonna try barking but afraid GFM come back and yell at momma.  so i will try whut sam did.  edrie sez she will triez to tranzlate since she is whisperer - but i had to still yell to get her to listen sometiemz.  not her fault.  she somewhut deaf.  so here goez...

    i gotta run out the doggie door - i hearz edrie in mr tee's 'bertible outside now!- but meet me under the orange tree an we'll tell you more of what mom's trying to fix for us to be safe!


  • 04/01/13--03:05: google has a new beta feature (chan 1012566)
  • check it out!

    be sure to download this beta application and try it out - it is up now and will only be available for a very short time - try out all the new features!

    so, without further ado...  go beneath the squiggle and try...


  • 04/07/13--00:01: what makes this community great (chan 1012566)
  • when a kossack is in trouble, this community is there.  this is a family - we have our squabbles, our disagreements, our hair-pulling contests, but when push comes to shove, kossacks are there for one another.

    near the end of march, kossacks were there to help one of our own artists, fineena, when she faced losing her apartment and ending up on the street with her beautiful two woozles, sam and julia.

    sam...
    Sam

    and julia...
    Julia

    we were successful in keeping the doghouse full for march - but april is now here and the GFM (grumpy faced man) is at it again, this time, demanding an "inspection" of the apartment as a ruse to collect the rent on monday.  

    fortunately, fineena has agile fingers and has added new scarves to her etsy shop so there are some beautiful ones to go around for those who missed out in march - and, if your loved one has a special day coming up, fineena now is offering a gift certificate to let your beloved (even if it is yourself) pick from a future design or customize the colors!

    and, with netroots nation coming up - wouldn't it be great to be seen bedecked by one of these beautiful creations?  hey, here in northern california, they are PERFECT for that sudden dip in temperature when the sun goes down!

    MC40

    you'll see some of the most fashionista kossacks wearing them!  and her work is truly art!

    GOS3

    heck, these are even "guy things" - here in the conservative world of orange!

    GOS2

    okay - that is the light stuff - now for the serious - please come below the squiggle - it really IS important...


    our own jekyllandhyde put this together to help spread the word about fineena's beautiful scarves - i was going to add it to THIS diary but decided it should stand on it's own, as well!  and, to update, we're at $581 right now - she has to have $800 tomorrow and then we can work on the car and a bit of breathing room.

    thanks, everyone - this community is the greatest!



    Do You Like Scarves?



    If you are on Facebook and Twitter, please help to spread the word by hitting the FB and Tweet links at the top of this diary and help a fellow community member. Share this posting about Willie Ru Designs with friends, family, co-workers, and acquaintances.

    Thanks, when a kossack is in trouble, this community is there.  This is a family - we have our squabbles, our disagreements, our hair-pulling contests, but when push comes to shove, kossacks are there for one another.  

    Please use hashtag #WillieRuDesigns to tweet this diary.



    HW82

    this afternoon, as we were moving stuff around the garage where i'm staying, my friend and i heard the tell-tale "POP POP POP POP - POPPOPPOPPOPPOPPOP  POPPOPPOP"

    phone out, 911 called and reported - multiple shots fired - about a block away off gloria way and bay...  two distinct guns...  definitely shots...  yes, toward bay.  name?  edrie

    "we'll get someone over there right away" THANK you!  

    more beneath the casings...


    update - 5:22 am: funny how hard it is to sleep when almost being robbed at gunpoint. still wide awake 7 1/2 hrs later.  not good. not good at all. might as well start to fix typos...

    came home late from the barn tonite - stopped by the grocery to wander and pick to walk off the sad news that one of the dressage olympians and a well-respected judge and rider had died recently.  it upset me for this is where my boys lived until i came off sani and broke my back.  (my fault - long story - but MY fault!)

    anyway, was saddened by her passing, so i stopped in the store to wander and kill a bit of time.  

    when i got home, it was nearly 10pm and, as per usual, two of the housemates (who should never want to own a car in new york because ny'ers are brutal on parking space hogs) had taken up three spaces, as usual.  i groused and snarled and drove to the end of the block to make a u-turn at the 4-way stop about 100 yds down from the house.  there was a car sitting at the stop sign when i pulled up.

    i stopped and waited for him to pass through the intersection, but he just SAT there.  and sat.  and sat.  finally, i blew my horn and blew it again and he drove slowly through the intersection.  i did my u'ie and pulled around to find the space opposite the house was just a WEE bit to small for me to park without using braille - and, already upset, i didn't want to chance taking out my frustrations on two innocent bumpers.

    follow me (er... bad choice of words, as you'll see) over the jump.


    i saved a snake today (well, actually yesterday).  he was trapped in fine plastic meshing used to discourage birds from “stealing” berries from the trees, although i must wonder if the birds really understand the concept of “stealing” what is freely grown in their open world.  it is the human that places the boundaries that separate the birds from their natural food source, not them.

    but, i digress...

    back to the snake in trouble.  the gardener left the extra black netting on the ground under the open deck - it was almost invisible until the poor creature slithered into the tangled tiny mesh.  once in, the mesh caught on the scaley covering of the creature and became firmly locked around his body.  all he could do was go forward into the unknown.

    as he pushed forward to try to disentangle himself from his now unwise choice, he found that the mesh was ever more convoluted, leaving him with fewer and few options but to push forward to try to find an exit at the other end of his journey.


    she's in the line of fire again - the black forest, colorado fire... and i'm worried.

    this fast moving fire is right in her neck of the woods. i believe it is technically called the falcon fire - here is more info from the denver post

    how about joining me in saying a prayer, blessing, wish, hope, anything you do and directing them in the direction of our beloved nurse kelley!

    not much more to say - just hoping for everyone to hold her close and all the folks in that area!


    this is one of the best videos of naked jumping i've ever seen - actually, it is the ONLY naked jumping i've ever seen!

    enjoy, folks - and notice that this competitor has an awesome seat!  ;)


  • 07/12/13--14:38: s.f. shooting just occurred (chan 1012566)
  • multiple shots fired near 888 brannan - the address is 840 brannan - the rei store.  multiple ambulances sent.

    i was SUPPOSED to be at brannan right now.  not much news out yet - just multiple people shot at 2:30 something in the afternoon.

    officers searching for someone...


    fate has an ironic way of giving and taking and giving again...

    the shooting at victoga's that took the life of two women who worked there - two who i've known and talked to and shopped with for many years is such a horrific tragedy.  the other injured man, still don't know if he is from victoga, but one news report indicates yes, is critical.  he has my prayers and healing wishes for comfort from the pain and loss of today's tragedy.

    i was supposed to be there today - within feet of victoga's - and had plans to go over and say hi and show them the "new" bracelet i found at a thrift shop and get it valued.  now that seems so trivial... but i would have been in that store about the time of the shooting - or across the hall.

    these people are special people - these are my "regular" people - the ones i've gone to for many years to find the special pieces that fit special people.

    when the news broke that there was a shooting, my first thought was of the giftcenter/jewelrymart and said a quick prayer that everyone would be okay.  that was not to be.

    the reason i wasn't there was another twist of fate.  sani is overdue for his shoes - couldn't get the coordination between my vet and farrier to check his feet and trim and change his shoes during his long healing from laminitis.  i tried repeatedly to call my farrier but kept getting voice mail and then the voice mailbox was full - that is why i didn't go into the city today.  

    when i finally closed the computer and left for the barn, i called richard again and this time got through... more fate after the fold...


  • 07/14/13--03:04: update on jewelry mart murders (chan 1012566)
  • i am at a loss for words...
    the suspect has been identified as barry white, jr, 23 yrs old, of antioch.  

    he had been in the store the day prior (so he knew the layout of the vault).  

    he had a rifle in his truck

    he is suing the city of antioch over alleged "civil rights violations" in a case that has been stayed pending the outcome of the 69 felonies with which is is currently charged on other unrelated charges.  something tells me now that this "lawsuit" is going nowhere!

    those who "support" him made this astounding statement on their blog tonite:

      This is not a coincidence. The police worked with snitch/ neighborhood watch types known as "gang stalking groups" to harass the shooter day and night until he had a breakdown and went postal. This is a story literally exploding across the country.

    Continue reading at NowPublic.com: SF Shooter Barry White Gang Stalked After Suing Antioch Police? | NowPublic News Coverage http://www.nowpublic.com/...

    so, because of this Fuck the Police mantra, two innocent women, Khin Min, 35 years old and Lini Lim, 51, are dead and the owner is in critical condition?  for WHAT!  because this little gangbanger felt "persecuted"?  what had they EVER done to HIM?  oh.  i get it.  

    easy targets.  pick people who can't fight back. be a BIG man to your "buddies" because you went "postal". cuz, FTP, you know - and all that...

    i am SO angry right now!


    hope y'all enjoy!  sani won't fit in tee's 'bertible... so i won't show him this!


    i've thought long and hard about whether or not to write this diary.  it is personal to me.  very personal.

    some on this site object strenuously when kossacks who are facing real trouble have fundraisers done to help them.  i've contributed to those in need and have been in need, myself, so i have a rather unique perspective to offer.

    first, let me state up front that i do not understand those who want to prohibit others from extending a helping hand to those in need.  i really don't understand what it "costs" someone who disapproves (and, yes, it is a judgement being made) of those who offer to help.

    this diary is an attempt to understand why coming to the aid of another person is so upsetting to some on the site - upsetting to the point that those who object would rather see someone suffer rather than have another lend a helping hand.

    i'm open to learning why those feelings exist - and i'm here to state that the community of users here who come to the aid of those in need are one of the reasons i'm here - whether it is a political candidate, someone who needs words of encouragement and support during illness, loss, pain - or financially.

    if you will, please hear me out across the orange divide.


    12:09 PM PT: .LATEST INFORMATION: still conflicting reports coming from d.c.  the mayor said at least 12 dead and there may still be another suspect  on the loose.  the media was reporting that two additional suspects were being sought.  one has been located and is not involved in the shooting.  this is from five minutes ago...
    President Obama's address regarding the naval yard shooting:

    Mayor gray addressing media now:

    thanking first responders and all who came to deal with horrific tragedy.

    regarding two other suspects - one has been talked to and ruled out.  another was identified as wearing drab olive uniform - still looking for him to determine if any involvement.

    do not yet know what the motive is - no reason to suspect terrorism, but not ruled out.

    13 fatalities (including shooter) - additional victim has died at the hospital.  no identities until families are notified.

    telling people who live in the area to stay out of the area - especially since they are trying to rule out the still unidentified man.

    washington nationals baseball game is postponed.

    chief laneir (sp?) asking people to stay as far away from the area but 295, 395 and 695 opened.  m st around nascar closed and asking people to stay away.

    asking businesses and residences to still shelter in place.  hope in the next couple of hours whether they can conclusively say that all suspects are accounted for.

    fbi will release information on shooter, aaron alexis.  investigation is continuing about him.

    valerie parlave (fbi) id'd aaron alexis of ft worth - picture on website on fbi.gov and they are asking people with information about him to contact them.

    evidence response team is now processing the scene and will be running down every lead.  asking the public to look at pictures and contact fbi with any information - nothing too small.

    the mayor just said that there are a dozen or more additional victims who are injured beyond the 13 who have died.

    senate is on lockdown - house not because they are not in session.

        ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

    breaking right now on abc news, there is a shelter in place for the navy yard and base due to an active shooter.  the early reports are that 1 to 3 people are injured - no word on the extent of those injuries.

    the base is being searched by armed patrols and the shelter in place is effective now.

    more when it is available.

    here are links to the news story...

    cbs local news

    from abc news

    The U.S. Navy said 3 shots were fired inside the headquarter building where approximately 3,000 people work.

    Police say they are now looking for an active shooter on the base.

    The Washington Navy Yard says on its website that it's the Navy's oldest shore establishment. It's home to the chief of Naval Operations and is also headquarters for the Naval Historical Center and numerous naval commands.

    updates below the fold...

  • 09/24/13--13:30: when it rains... monsoon season. (chan 1012566)
  • this is a update to sani and his bout with laminitis and for me, too - and the next storm blowing through.  fortunately, he is not the one "directly" affected.  indirectly, yes, because it impacts my being able to have funds necessary to cover his current vet bills and past board.  this awesome community raised half of what i owed one and a half month ago and i've been hoping to bring in the rest PLUS the now two months extra i owe (would LOVE a calendar that has a snooze button on it!)

    the good news - sani is now 2/3 new feet!  his farrier and vet are miracle workers.  MOST horses that are as severely laminitic as sani - with undiagnosed and untreated cushings disease (like with people, dogs, etc., this is a tumor on the pituitary) don't survive.  it CAN be controlled in animals with pergolide when caught in time - the drug slows the growth of the tumor and brings the horses back to near normal. one of sani's
    "mares" at the barn has been on pergolide for 10 years and at nearly 30, she is in great shape!

    laminitis is a side effect of the cushings and his insulin resistance.  yes, now i have a horse with insulin issues as i had mr tee, my precious sammy, who was a 2x a day insulin boy with full fledged diabetes.  i cooked for him.  for sani, i have to search for special hay and special feed.

    i do this all in love for he is so worth it!

    we were on our way to catching up - then i've been feeling punk this last week - not doing much with the jewelry making - just didn't feel good.

    then, yesterday morning, about 6:25, i woke up out of a dead sleep with the most excrutiating pain in my right below my diaphram that migrated to my midback and upper shoulders. i felt like i was in the grip of a giant crab intent on squeezing harder!

    the pain was blinding - i hobbled to the bathroom and tried to "will it" away.  my willpower failed me bigtime!

    in minutes, i was drenched in sweat to the point i looked like i'd just stepped out of the shower.  not good.  not good at all!

    then the weakness from my left shoulder region so i was now doubly worried.  the first thought orginally flashing through my head was "GALL BLADDER" when this happened, but since my dad died in less than a minute of feeling discomfort when having his heart attack, i decided that the e.r. was my destination - hopefully not my final one!

    ekgs and ultrasounds and seems my gall bladder is trying to grow a mountain - tons of little pepples!  doc craig was surprised i'd never had an attack prior to this!  guess i'm really just lucky!

    so, it was so severe that my new surgeon scheduled me for surgery on wednesday!  that's right - tomorrow!

    yep - i go under the knife in less than 48 hours from the first attack! (24 hrs from now)  recovery time is approx two weeks.  sigh...

    sigh.  i can't win sometimes.... but i'm not feeling sorry for myself.  i STILL have to raise the board balance.  and, at least, i know i'll be home to do the work since i'll not be doing any heavy lifting for the next two to three weeks!  

    recovery time is perfect - sani will be ready to go back to work in a month - and hopefully, sani will be healthy and ready to ride by then!  YAY!!!  at least this happened BEFORE we got under saddle again.  in the meantime, i'll be loading my koskatalogue with lots of great gifts for christmas and starting a gofundme page with rewards for jewelry yet unmade!  

    so - the good; sani's feet, the bad; gall bladder, the ugly, barn is pressing for the balance i owe and i've now got medical stuff to boot.

    thank god for medicare and kaiser - at least, i am covered for most and thanks to being old, i don't have to try to "tough it out" because i can't afford to see the doctor.

    we need medicare for all.  period!

    now, one last little plea - anyone wanna go shopping?

    koskatalogue lists my etsy shop here.

    if you want to order something special not on the katalogue, you can through contacting me and using paypal (mine is edrie dot blackwelder at paypal dot com)

    or you can go to gofundme to see what i'm offering custom at custom prices.

    and, please say a little prayer, send energy, think of me at 1:30 tomorrow (wednesday) - at least this is laproscopic...general anesthesia, though.  i'll be incoherently home tomorrow nite, so no promises i'll be online. (hah - i'll be here - incoherent but here!  i'm ADDICTED!!!)


  • 09/25/13--02:48: can't sleep. (chan 1012566)
  • too busy pretending i'm not worried about this afternoon.

    sigh.

    bigfish games only work for so long.

    anybody got any spare sheep?


  • 09/26/13--01:11: owie! (chan 1012566)
  • i'm still here alive but not kickin'
    took out my gall bladder - it was FULL of large stones!  my doc took pictures fr me.  wow, oh wow!

    worst part was my back spasming where i fractured it in 2004.  finally go it to give wit GOOD DRUGS!!!

    felt like mr tee on morphine for his spleenectmy.

    justmorpeen dripz

    the good news is that i'm okay - ton of stones now gone.  when the drain is removed, i can concentrate on healing - at least, physically. the other stuff about my mom - will, thats gonna take much longer - but at least, i've got it finally in the courts.

    just wanted to update from yesterday...  going to try to slee now.

    nite, all.

    e


    is that i could watch the shutdown travesty unfold round the clock.  and i have.

    hi.

    i'm back, sorta.

    well, i'm still in hospital - been here since monday.  tried to get message out but phone is not working in here - messages don't send.  calls, intermittent.  

    the peace and quiet (aside from cspan) has been good.

    on top of everything else - getting home is getting to be a big fucking deal.  getting my stuff out of 88 yr old woman's house and back to mine has been complicated - to the point i'm ready to leave hospital and go move sh*t myself tomorrow - i NEED my effin' jewelry - if i don't make up for lost time, i lose much more than my sanity.

    i missed you folks.

    really.

    almost dying will do that to ya.

    below the fold is the whine - you don't have to read if you're not in the mood - i'm needing to vent as much as i dare at the moment.


    i wanted to personally thank the blogathon for bringing us to the attention of the community.  thanks to remembrance, i got to buy sani food this week and keep my car insured.

    i may be off the grid for a bit, though, my phone bill is due tomorrow and i've three more major bills coming due that got put off due to the trip to n.c.  as some of you know, these last few months have been tumultous - the left over loss of the majority of the use of my left hand due to an inept physical therapist who delayed starting treatment after my hand surgery last december (she waited a full month because, in her own words, "i'm really BOOKED!").  that left enough time for severe scar tissue to set in - and it is only now that i have partial use of my hand back ... and another procedure scheduled for jan 6 where, under nerve block, my surgeon will force my fingers to bend through the scarring.  that may or may not work but physical therapy THIS time starts on jan 7 - if not, then i get to go under the knife again to cut the tendons loose from the ligaments that are blocked with the scarring.

    then, my room mate took a job with her friend as a "wildlife trapper" - and she kills what she catches.  this is against EVERYTHING that i have done in my life in wildlife rehabilitation... so i fled the room i was forced to take in her house when i lost my cottage last december (2012) due to mom's will not being resolved.  (little did i know then what was to come...)

    ao, in july, after multiple askings from a friend's 88 yr old mom, i moved into her condo to stay until my lawyer was able to get mom's estate resolved. (yes, we had to go there - seems my sister closed probate over two years ago without ever showing me the will SHE wrote and signed and presented to the court... more on that down the road - but, folks, HAVE a NEUTRAL arbitrator on ALL wills - NOT a family member as an executrix/or)

    more below the squiggle... if you are interested in the trials and tribulations that will eventually make their way into a book/script.


    on october 25th of this year i flew home for the last time to mom's house.

    it was my last home with my parents - i was a freshman in college when they bought their dream home - a beautiful ranch style house made of "old brick".  one of three on the block, the yard was open and big and filled with promise and hope.

    this three bedroom, two bath home was the culmination of my parents' determination to put my sister and i through college - doing so by moving us into a duplex that was one of the first "co-ops" in charlotte - we lived cramped and in far too close contact for my sister and myself, sharing one bedroom while mom and dad had the other.  my sister left for grad school when mom and dad found the beautiful promise of a new life.

    as the second owner of this home, it felt like brand new - rich wood floors and paneling in the den, wood floors throughout... and those bay windows in the den overlooking the yard that would have dad's small garden and his beloved gas grill.  in the worst weather, dad would be there with his umbrella happily grilling to perfection... the rain didn't matter.

    after dad died in 1983, mom stayed for another 28 years - never leaving their home.  she lived alone in her home with determination.  i had moved away after grad school to take a teaching position in new england... one that lasted six months before i made the dash for freedom in new york city.

    my older sister stayed in charlotte, teaching first at our alma mater, then teaching at the local community college until she retired.  i used to think our relationship was rocky due to the close proximity and inability to escape into our own private spaces in the early years in the duplex, but nothing changed as we aged.  we had periodic episodes where we got along - when she came to ny to visit and go to special events, but i realized that i was little more than a free hotel room.  ours relationship seemed better at a distance, as did my relationship with mom.

    when i moved to california in 1993, it was after reagan killed the arts and richard miller killed off wang labs.  i moved west for work - not realizing that it's true about hotel california - you can check in but you can never leave.  once here, i didn't have the funds to make the 3000 mile trek back.

    come with me on the journey home for the last time...


    hi, all!  it's time for the december blogathon for all of us who love to make beautiful things and share them with our friends!

    i finally got all but one of  my orders in the mail - that one is almost done!  now, it's time to do the final christmas push for EdriesShop on etsy!  i've gotten a new supply of gorgeous pearls and stones in and am working my fingers to the bone to get them online and available to you all!

    here is the work in progress:  akoya salt water pearls in gold with matching earrings!  the knotting begins tonite!

    IMG_20131210_200836

    IMG_20131210_200943

    akoya clasp smooth

    akoya pearl clasps

    this time, i'm adding a special discount (type in orange) just for my orange family - you all have stood by me when i couldn't stand alone, so i'm passing it back to you!

    i work close to margin, but for all you who find a treasure you can't resist, if you type in "orange", it will take off 15% of the price!

    i'll be adding new items for the rest of the week - and i can custom design something for you now that i'm restocked on some basic findings!  

    i've added the beautiful jade hoops again - the last i can get these stones for another 5-6 months (they are on a slow boat from china... :^( ... so i bought out my special supplier who adds love to everything before it leaves HER store!

    IMG_20131210_194704

    jade small green hoops natural green

    onyx hoops large

    jade xlarge hoops natural green

    gold jade xlarge hoops

    come below the fold with me and i'll show you what's up and what's coming up!


  • 12/12/13--06:09: Kos Katalogue: secret santa time! (chan 1012566)
  • last year, something truly wonderful happened!  i was the recipient of the most wondrous gift!  this community, through this diary, gave me a secret santa gift of a portrait of my beloved mr tee- painted by the amazing kossack david woodward.  he captured the true spirit of my precious boy!

    Screen Shot 2013-12-12 at 12.52.01 AM

    this treasure is one of the most special gifts i've ever received!  so, in that spirit, i'd like to start this year's "secret santa" gift giving for our kos kommunity!

    if you know of someone you would like to surprise with a gift from our wonderful artists here on this site, this is the time and place to let us know!  i know we're later than usual getting started, but i know that we can do this!

    through the comments in the diaries of the artists on this site, we find comments like this one...

    All I can do at the moment is T & R (6+ / 0-)
    but my T & R is for both myself and my beloved sister Aji. Life has gotten in the way of her being online and it will be for a while, time unknown, so she asked me to let you know.

    I still have my eye on that petrified wood necklace if it's still around when I can afford it. The earrings are gorgeous but I tend not to wear earrings much. Necklaces, yes. In fact, I just wore the green-stone necklace Charles got me from Edrie last year to an important campaign function for my state senator. It is quite striking and got a lot of compliments, and there's a warmth to the stone that I can't quite explain.

    An organ donor saved my life! Support Small Business: Shop Kos Katalogue

    by Kitsap Riveron Sun Jul 28, 2013 at 07:54:31 PM PDT

    well, i pulled that necklace immediately and have it set aside - and would like to offer it up for a secret santa gift from all of us to our special kitsap...

    if anyone else has had someone admire something special in their shop, this is a time to post it - or if someone remembers someone admiring something - please either messaage me or post in the comments and let's get this sleigh on the move!  come beneath the fold for more information on previous gifts and diaries - this year, aji and sara r aren't able to do the monitoring - so i've volunteered...

    here is sara r's last year's diary - please go visit and let me know if you've had a visitor to your shop or you have someone you would like to help gift that special item!  your gift is a gift times two - it helps our artists AND it is a permanent reminder of how much of a family we really are!

    we don't have much time so i'm posting this quickly - if i've left anything out, please forgive me!


    secret santa is busy this year making his list and checking it twice!

    on that list, so far, we have the following kossacks:

    kitsap river who wants a stocking filled with wood - petrified wood, that is!  
    $25 raised - the balance needed for her wish is currently at $150.

    Ooooh has been looking at a beautiful scarf to keep warm and beautiful!  

    JUST starting out so $66 is needed to put this under the tree!

    have you someone you would like to see gifted with something special from the community artisans?  are YOU hoping for that special work of art?  well, now's the time to speak up!

    here are just SOME of the shops that are available - - and if you are an artisan and your shop is missing, please add it to the comments and we'll put it in the next secret santa diary!

    right now, there are two giftings in the works:


    kitsap river - petrified wood necklace - $175 - balance remaining, $150
    Ooooh        - scarf by fineena              $  66
    who would you like to add to this list and from what kos katalogue artist?

     


  • 12/13/13--15:48: Secret Santa needs ELVES! (chan 1012566)
  • hi, all - it's me again from the north pole (in freezing california)!  this is your update for the secret santa monologues - uh - dialogues?  we're pushing the clock here, working our fingers to the bone typing to get these special gifts set up and ready to be delivered by little reindeer (or, with the spirit of mr tee guiding them, by santa's little helpers - sani and lyublyu!)

    tee pic me pic amy 1

    tee kisses

    sani santa hat and me amy pic 3

    lyublyu, elf in training!

    lyublyu dat's my big bro!

    there are many ways for elves to help - if you have a spare dollar or two - they add up quickly.  if you are struggling to keep the lights on right now, even a tip and rec are worth a lot since it keeps these diaries in the community eye.  a kind word, a special request (for something you've always admired in someone's shop, sharing makes a difference - these things ALL help!  

    right now, we have the following secret santa gifts on the worktable:

    our own kitsap river is dreaming of very old things - a necklace made of petrified wood!  - balance needed $150 (contact edrie)

    Ooooh wants a scarf to keep her warm on the chilly nights!  balance needed $ 46 (contact fineena)

    Sara r and Ann are still hoping to find aji's beautiful necklaces under their tree! - balance needed  Necklace for Winglion (Ann R):  $180+ needed
    2 necklaces for SaraR: $500+ needed (contact aji)

    and spirit of life dreams of looking at one of markos the werelynx's beautiful paintings! $15 - $350 (contact markos the werelynx)

    i'll post the most recent totals so far later tonite - but here's what we know so far:

    to make a donation toward these secret santas, you can kosmail the artist (aji via her email, markos, fineena or me) or post a comment below.  to send a gift amount here via paypal (please be sure to put in the notes that it is for the secret santa gift) or send a check (kosmail me for the address of the artist) and post the amount in the comments.  if you wish to make an anonymous gift, kosmail me and i'll add that to the comments. - and when the total is reached, then that necklace will be around kitsap's neck!


    he needs help in filling the requests!  We only have one week left!  hard to believe, isn't it... what HAPPENED to this year?!?

    that's where "secret santa" comes in!

    this community - and it IS a "community" has, over the years, surprised and brought joy to many members who were the recipients of secret santa gifts!  i know - i was given an absolutely beautiful portrait of my boy, mr tee, in december following his departure for the rainbow bridge in may.  so many others on this site have felt the warmth and love that exists here - and, although we were late hearing santa's call, we are once again stepping up to fill in for this season!

    so far, we have the following gifts still outstanding

    kitsap river - edrie - petrified wood necklace            $175   - 75      balance:  $100
    zentrainer - fineena scarf                                       $ 86                balance:  $ 46
    remembrance - custom necklace                            $125  - $20      balance:  $105

    Aji has a diary coming up later today with an update on the totals needed to finish these secret santa gifts for our two quilters!

    sara r - aji - art necklaces                                      $500    
    winglion - aji - art necklace                                    $180    

    spirit in life - marko the werelynx artwork               $15-350  (waiting for update)

    **ramara - wings garnet earrings                           $                     COMPLETE!
    **Ooooh - fineena - scarf                                       $  86               COMPLETE!

    If you would like to add a cookie or glass of milk for an elf, the way this works is simple.

    simply make a donation to the the artist who is the holder of the gift - add a note that it is for the person you'd like to play santa for - and we track the totals.... when one is done, we let you know!

    if there is someone you'd like to nominate for a specific item, just let me know and i'll add them to the list - and we'll try for a big push this week to fill all those stockings in time for delivery for the holidays!

    there must be elves ready to help fill!  i know the hearts of this community are brighter when the elves are working hard!  so, how about it?  want to add to the stockings of these kossacks this year?


    okay - this is the start of the push for Kitsap River and Rembrance's Secret Santa gifts!

    Secret Santa heard Kitsap River when she admired this petrified wood necklace.

    Screen Shot 2013-12-12 at 12.37.48 AM

    She messaged me that she was so sad when it disappeared (i pulled it that day for her) - she thought it had been sold!  HA!  little does she realize the long reach of Santa begins WAY before the holiday is near!

    and, Remembrance was nominated for HER Secret Santa gift for all she does on this site and for the kids she helps (not to mention being an awesome mom and partner to our own Glen the Plumber!  (HEY! why don't we do any Secret Santa's for men!  Hmmmmmm

    NEW!!!  AJI is ON THE LIST of NICE!!!  the bracelet she loves has been added and started at $535 and now we only need $290.

    how about making these three wonderful kossacks happy!!!

    Don't want to spoil the surprise for remembrance, so i'll post the picture when it is done - i'd like to give it to her next week when TLO is out at the barn for "christmas camp".  looking forward to spending time with them both!

    Well, Santa's Elves have raised almost half for Kitsap's necklace and we're off on the quest for Remembrance's necklace - one custom designed especially for her!

    If you want to be a card-carrying elf, then join me below the swirly lightbulb!


    We've only a few days to go until Christmas!  (To show the seriousness of this situation, I am biting the bullet and using proper capitalization!)

    With only a few days until Christmas, we still have some outstanding balances on our Secret Santas!  (For that reason, I am enduring the discomfort of using CAP keys!)

    Here is where we stand - and I'll update (or the other Santas can do so in the comments!)

    From EdriesShopfor Kitsap River and Remembrance...

    Kitsap River:  Petrified Necklace - $175 + s/h ($5.40) - balance left to raise is $80.40.
    Remembrance: Necklace - $125 - balance left to raise is $105.40 (This one is a surprise - so no picture forthcoming - after it's paid for, I'll post it!)  (Remembrance's surprise can morph into something better - if the elves can make the new balance $200!  It IS worth it, trust me on this one!  I'll post delivery pics if we make it before next week!)

    [Kosmail edrie to donate to these two gifts or put your donation amount in the comments below.]

    From AJI:
    Sara R: Necklace by Aji - $350 - balance left to raise is $175 with a Match offer for $50 on the table!

    Ann (winglion) - Necklace by Aji - $350 - with a balance left of $175 with a Match offer for $50 on the table!

    [Kosmail Aji to donate to these two gifts or put your donation amount in the comments below.]

    Spirit of Life wants something Werelynxy! - for a mug - it's only $15! (SURELY we can do THIS one! - for something bigger, a print or painting (up to $350)

    [Kosmail Marko the Werelynx to donate to these two gifts or put your donation amount in the comments below.]

    Zentrainer wants us to keep her warm with a scarf! - only $41 to go there!

    [Kosmail Fineena to donate to these two gifts or put your donation amount in the comments below.]

    AND, for our very own AJI, she is dreaming of a silver bracelet that Wings made but they can't afford to pull it - so we are doing it for her!  I don't have the current update and balance, but I believe it is around $200 - I'll update when I get back from the barn!

    AND, I still have an ORANGE discount at EdriesShop - if you see something you like, I'll send it out Monday (if you want it for Christmas, kosmail me and I can let you know how much it would be Express Mail).

    Just use the coupon code "ORANGE" for the discount!


    not for the presents we got, but for the presents we gave.  my mom and dad every christmas would explain to my sister and i how there were children that wouldn't get any presents and how we could help santa.

    you see, we didn't have a lot of money - it wasn't until i was a freshman in college that i realized how creative my parents were to give us what we needed.  mom was a great cook - dad worked long hours - and they had a vision.  that vision was of sending their daughters to college when girls didn't GO to college - boys went to college.  girls got married, had babies and that was what they did (or they became teachers, nurses or secretaries).

    to make that happen (the college thing), my parents learned how to live well on that proverbial shoestring while planning for the future.  my mom taught sewing in her father's singer sewing shop before she became a full time mom who sewed for her kids.  that's how dad first saw her in the window of that shop. he told his friend that one day, he was going to marry her!  they hadn't even met yet.

    as she always laughed and said, it took him three years to wear her down!

    and, we WERE the best dressed kids in school!  she was a genius at that singer!  

    so, as we grew up, part of our childhood was getting to play santa.  we were asked to choose one of our toys to give to that child who was going to be missed.  and we were asked to give one that was really nice - not some cast off that we no longer wanted.

    come with me over the fold for these memories of mom and dad...


    10:35 PM PT: update III

    remembrance now has another $50 - leaving her balance at $100.40

    9:57 PM PT: KITSAP RIVER COMPLETED!!!!

    AJI's bracelet has now only $40 left plus s/h!

    Remembrance's necklace has only $100.40

    Sara r is holding at $125 plus s/h

    Ann (winglion) is also $125 plus s/h

    Spirit of Life - has $100 toward a print - needs more (will update tomorrow)

    Kitsap River completed tonite!

    ZENTRAINER"S scarf is covered!

    Oooh has her scarf!

    the marti - complete!

    ramara - completed!

    that means we only have a total of $350 plus the balance for spirit of life (hey! marko the werelynx - need a TOTAL!)  to fill ALL these stockings!

     

    yall can DO this!  i'm SURE of it!

    these are our outstanding secret santa recipients - we are working of special ways to acknowledge their participation and contribution on this site by giving something special to let them know how we feel about them.

    what i'd like to do in this diary is to ask everyone to talk of their interactions with these special people and why they were chosen this year.  

    we have completed some of our secret santas - and if you'd like to talk about those who have been given this gift from the community, please join below in the comments and let's pay tribute to some special people!

    follow below to see what is still outstanding and who is still on santa's list!


    As of 10:09 11:15 pm pst,

    AJI's bracelet is now complete!
    sara r and winglion are complete!

    remembrance is now at $60.40 $50.40

    spirit of life has $115 now toward her secret santa!

     

    Remembrance's necklace has only $100.40$80.40! NEW TOTAL:  $60.40

    (contact edrie to donate)

    Sara r is holding at $125 $85$35 plus s/h COMPLETE

    (contact aji to donate)

    Ann (winglion) is also $85$35 plus s/h COMPLETE

    (contact aji to donate)

    Spirit of Life - has NOW at $115 toward a print - needs more (contact marko the werelynx to donate)

    Kitsap River completed tonite!

    ZENTRAINER"S scarf is covered!

    Oooh has her scarf!

    the marti - complete!

    ramara - completed!

    that means we only have a total of $350 $270$150 $60.40  plus the balance for spirit of life  ($100?) (hey! marko the werelynx - need a TOTAL!)  to fill ALL these stockings!

     

    yall can DO this!  i'm SURE of it!

    yesterday's diary asked "why" these people have been singled out to be recipients of secret santa for 2013.  today, we are looking toward the close and we've not yet fed the reindeer - they are ready to go but just need your help!

    i hope you'll join us in making the spirits of these wonderful kossacks brighter!

    if you'd like to be a part of this joyous sharing, please kosmail me and i'll tell you how and to whom to send your gift!

    merry christmas, happy holidays, happy hanukkah, happy festivus, glorious solstice and more!


  • 12/24/13--10:00: o'henry's "gift of the magi" (chan 1012566)
  • THE GIFT OF THE MAGI

    by O. Henry

    One dollar and eighty-seven cents. That was all. And sixty cents of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one's cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty- seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas.

    There was clearly nothing to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating.

    While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the lookout for the mendicancy squad.

    In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no letter would go, and an electric button from which no mortal finger could coax a ring. Also appertaining thereunto was a card bearing the name "Mr. James Dillingham Young."

    The "Dillingham" had been flung to the breeze during a former period of prosperity when its possessor was being paid $30 per week. Now, when the income was shrunk to $20, though, they were thinking seriously of contracting to a modest and unassuming D. But whenever Mr. James Dillingham Young came home and reached his flat above he was called "Jim" and greatly hugged by Mrs. James Dillingham Young, already introduced to you as Della. Which is all very good.

    Della finished her cry and attended to her cheeks with the powder rag. She stood by the window and looked out dully at a gray cat walking a gray fence in a gray backyard. Tomorrow would be Christmas Day, and she had only $1.87 with which to buy Jim a present. She had been saving every penny she could for months, with this result. Twenty dollars a week doesn't go far. Expenses had been greater than she had calculated. They always are. Only $1.87 to buy a present for Jim. Her Jim. Many a happy hour she had spent planning for something nice for him. Something fine and rare and sterling--something just a little bit near to being worthy of the honor of being owned by Jim.

    There was a pier-glass between the windows of the room. Perhaps you have seen a pier-glass in an $8 flat. A very thin and very agile person may, by observing his reflection in a rapid sequence of longitudinal strips, obtain a fairly accurate conception of his looks. Della, being slender, had mastered the art.

    Suddenly she whirled from the window and stood before the glass. her eyes were shining brilliantly, but her face had lost its color within twenty seconds. Rapidly she pulled down her hair and let it fall to its full length.

    Now, there were two possessions of the James Dillingham Youngs in which they both took a mighty pride. One was Jim's gold watch that had been his father's and his grandfather's. The other was Della's hair. Had the queen of Sheba lived in the flat across the airshaft, Della would have let her hair hang out the window some day to dry just to depreciate Her Majesty's jewels and gifts. Had King Solomon been the janitor, with all his treasures piled up in the basement, Jim would have pulled out his watch every time he passed, just to see him pluck at his beard from envy.

    So now Della's beautiful hair fell about her rippling and shining like a cascade of brown waters. It reached below her knee and made itself almost a garment for her. And then she did it up again nervously and quickly. Once she faltered for a minute and stood still while a tear or two splashed on the worn red carpet.

    On went her old brown jacket; on went her old brown hat. With a whirl of skirts and with the brilliant sparkle still in her eyes, she fluttered out the door and down the stairs to the street.

    Where she stopped the sign read: "Mne. Sofronie. Hair Goods of All Kinds." One flight up Della ran, and collected herself, panting. Madame, large, too white, chilly, hardly looked the "Sofronie."

    "Will you buy my hair?" asked Della.

    "I buy hair," said Madame. "Take yer hat off and let's have a sight at the looks of it."

    Down rippled the brown cascade.

    "Twenty dollars," said Madame, lifting the mass with a practised hand.

    "Give it to me quick," said Della.

    Oh, and the next two hours tripped by on rosy wings. Forget the hashed metaphor. She was ransacking the stores for Jim's present.

    She found it at last. It surely had been made for Jim and no one else. There was no other like it in any of the stores, and she had turned all of them inside out. It was a platinum fob chain simple and chaste in design, properly proclaiming its value by substance alone and not by meretricious ornamentation--as all good things should do. It was even worthy of The Watch. As soon as she saw it she knew that it must be Jim's. It was like him. Quietness and value--the description applied to both. Twenty-one dollars they took from her for it, and she hurried home with the 87 cents. With that chain on his watch Jim might be properly anxious about the time in any company. Grand as the watch was, he sometimes looked at it on the sly on account of the old leather strap that he used in place of a chain.

    When Della reached home her intoxication gave way a little to prudence and reason. She got out her curling irons and lighted the gas and went to work repairing the ravages made by generosity added to love. Which is always a tremendous task, dear friends--a mammoth task.

    Within forty minutes her head was covered with tiny, close-lying curls that made her look wonderfully like a truant schoolboy. She looked at her reflection in the mirror long, carefully, and critically.

    "If Jim doesn't kill me," she said to herself, "before he takes a second look at me, he'll say I look like a Coney Island chorus girl. But what could I do--oh! what could I do with a dollar and eighty- seven cents?"

    At 7 o'clock the coffee was made and the frying-pan was on the back of the stove hot and ready to cook the chops.

    Jim was never late. Della doubled the fob chain in her hand and sat on the corner of the table near the door that he always entered. Then she heard his step on the stair away down on the first flight, and she turned white for just a moment. She had a habit for saying little silent prayer about the simplest everyday things, and now she whispered: "Please God, make him think I am still pretty."

    The door opened and Jim stepped in and closed it. He looked thin and very serious. Poor fellow, he was only twenty-two--and to be burdened with a family! He needed a new overcoat and he was without gloves.

    Jim stopped inside the door, as immovable as a setter at the scent of quail. His eyes were fixed upon Della, and there was an expression in them that she could not read, and it terrified her. It was not anger, nor surprise, nor disapproval, nor horror, nor any of the sentiments that she had been prepared for. He simply stared at her fixedly with that peculiar expression on his face.

    Della wriggled off the table and went for him.

    "Jim, darling," she cried, "don't look at me that way. I had my hair cut off and sold because I couldn't have lived through Christmas without giving you a present. It'll grow out again--you won't mind, will you? I just had to do it. My hair grows awfully fast. Say `Merry Christmas!' Jim, and let's be happy. You don't know what a nice-- what a beautiful, nice gift I've got for you."

    "You've cut off your hair?" asked Jim, laboriously, as if he had not arrived at that patent fact yet even after the hardest mental labor.

    "Cut it off and sold it," said Della. "Don't you like me just as well, anyhow? I'm me without my hair, ain't I?"

    Jim looked about the room curiously.

    "You say your hair is gone?" he said, with an air almost of idiocy.

    "You needn't look for it," said Della. "It's sold, I tell you--sold and gone, too. It's Christmas Eve, boy. Be good to me, for it went for you. Maybe the hairs of my head were numbered," she went on with sudden serious sweetness, "but nobody could ever count my love for you. Shall I put the chops on, Jim?"

    Out of his trance Jim seemed quickly to wake. He enfolded his Della. For ten seconds let us regard with discreet scrutiny some inconsequential object in the other direction. Eight dollars a week or a million a year--what is the difference? A mathematician or a wit would give you the wrong answer. The magi brought valuable gifts, but that was not among them. This dark assertion will be illuminated later on.

    Jim drew a package from his overcoat pocket and threw it upon the table.

    "Don't make any mistake, Dell," he said, "about me. I don't think there's anything in the way of a haircut or a shave or a shampoo that could make me like my girl any less. But if you'll unwrap that package you may see why you had me going a while at first."

    White fingers and nimble tore at the string and paper. And then an ecstatic scream of joy; and then, alas! a quick feminine change to hysterical tears and wails, necessitating the immediate employment of all the comforting powers of the lord of the flat.

    For there lay The Combs--the set of combs, side and back, that Della had worshipped long in a Broadway window. Beautiful combs, pure tortoise shell, with jewelled rims--just the shade to wear in the beautiful vanished hair. They were expensive combs, she knew, and her heart had simply craved and yearned over them without the least hope of possession. And now, they were hers, but the tresses that should have adorned the coveted adornments were gone.

    But she hugged them to her bosom, and at length she was able to look up with dim eyes and a smile and say: "My hair grows so fast, Jim!"

    And them Della leaped up like a little singed cat and cried, "Oh, oh!"

    Jim had not yet seen his beautiful present. She held it out to him eagerly upon her open palm. The dull precious metal seemed to flash with a reflection of her bright and ardent spirit.

    "Isn't it a dandy, Jim? I hunted all over town to find it. You'll have to look at the time a hundred times a day now. Give me your watch. I want to see how it looks on it."

    Instead of obeying, Jim tumbled down on the couch and put his hands under the back of his head and smiled.

    "Dell," said he, "let's put our Christmas presents away and keep 'em a while. They're too nice to use just at present. I sold the watch to get the money to buy your combs. And now suppose you put the chops on."

    The magi, as you know, were wise men--wonderfully wise men--who brought gifts to the Babe in the manger. They invented the art of giving Christmas presents. Being wise, their gifts were no doubt wise ones, possibly bearing the privilege of exchange in case of duplication. And here I have lamely related to you the uneventful chronicle of two foolish children in a flat who most unwisely sacrificed for each other the greatest treasures of their house. But in a last word to the wise of these days let it be said that of all who give gifts these two were the wisest. O all who give and receive gifts, such as they are wisest. Everywhere they are wisest. They are the magi.


    the final update for our secret santas now is as follows:

    This is a confirmation that Secret Santa's sled touched down at 12:45 am pacific time - and every stocking has been filled!

    for all the wonderful elves who helped guide his sleigh to their deserving recipients, go enjoy your eggnog and cookies and look for update diaries in the days to come as the kossacks who don't yet know what their surprise will be get to see their gifts!

    THANK YOU ALL!

    MERRY CHRISTMAS!  HAPPY SOLSTICE!  HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

    i love you all!


  • 01/24/14--19:50: da kat did it... (chan 1012566)
  • why you never leave a sammy puppy to his own devices...

    just had to share!


    my macbook pro decided to go chips up (or down) one week before my apple care expired.

    they replaced the logic board (try da mutha), the hard drive, the track pad, the fan and a week later the keyboard.

    i asked why not replace the entire computer because so much was failing.

    the answer i got was all that was left was the screen - and i practically had a new computer!  they even upgraded my hard drive from 316gb to 499gb.

    ok.

    cool.

    more below the twisted wires...


    it is a bitter sweet day for me since after her death, i lost my only sister, as well.

    no, she didn't die.

    she DID kill the relationship between us, though, when she submitted a fake will, probated the will without telling me, took everything that mom and dad had worked for that was meant for both their daughters.

    and, no, i'm not allowing her to "get away with it".

    it isn't about the money - although she has left me totally impoverished - even as she borrowed the last funds i had while claiming she couldn't pay her mortgage (and EVEN after i found out she lives on a retirement of over $65,000 per year).

    but that isn't the reason i have taken this to the courts - it is about living by the principles our parents taught us - do not lie, do not steal.  your word is your bond.

    unfortunately, my own "word" is now shakey as i cannot meet obligations that should normally not be a problem.  and, no, this isn't a diary asking for funds - it is about an important lesson we all need - i especially needed...